Sixteen

I have a question for you all :)

Why is 16 such a landmark age? (aside from the obvious license thing)
any ideas?

leave comments :)

new update!

Blogging from work!

It's only cool because it's new for me. My special new laptop does everything :)

Midterms

Oh my goodness....

I've decided that I absolutely HATE chemistry exams. And I stink at them. But I think I passed today's.

Anywho. I'm so tired of talking about midterms. Haha, I know the title of the post is "Midterms" but you know what? It's my blog. ;) I can say what I want. :D

So basically, I'm really sorry for not writing on here in FOREVER, but I'll try to pick it back up again.

What's happened since "That Heartbreak Feeling"?

Let's see.....

Nia had her baby! Parker Calvin Jones, a beautiful bundle of joy whose cute little baby noises and newborn smell make me smile until my face hurts.

That Heartbreak Feeling

Just thought I'd share a poem I wrote in Spanish class. Leave comments please!!

Heartbeats earthquakes
Breathing shudder heartache
Clock ticks phone rings
Roll over creaking springs
Hollow answer bright reply
"It's not him," sighs inside
Dial tone phone down
Stop a sob hit the ground
Circle circle heartache
Reverberating earthquake
Rain falls thunder cries
All alone a heart dies

You know that feeling when you need someone so much, the phone rings, and it's not them. You come crashing back down to earth and the impact shatters you inside.

Stealing a meme again: Book meme.

Found this meme on Petula's blog. and I'm an addict with meme things, so I figured I'd post it.

The rules:
Grab the nearest book.
Open the book to page 56.
Find the fifth sentence.
Post the text of the next two to five sentences in your journal/blog along with these instructions.
Don't dig for your favorite book, the cool book or the intellectual one: pick the
CLOSEST.
Tag five other people to do the same.

The book I grabbed was Feed by M.T. Anderson. I checked it out cuz of the awesome cover (yeah, yeah, I know "don't judge a book by it's cover" but does it count if it was only a first impression?) and I tore it apart today when I stayed home from school with a fever.

He just kept shaking his head and going, "Yeah," "Yeah," "Yeah," "Oh, yeah," "Yeah," "Shit," "Yeah."
Finally, he stood up. I could tell he was pissed. He held up his hands. He said, "They want to subpoena your memories.

Weirdly enough, that was a pretty important part of the book...

Anyway, I tag:
Aunty Joy

She's the only one I'm gonna bother tagging, cuz I'm not really connected with many other bloggers. But anyway, comment!! :^]

Friday Fill-Ins....a bit late...

Got this from Friday Fill-Ins.

1. October is the BEST month, cuz it's fall and it's still warm enough to go outside and ride bikes.
2. Balloons scare me!
3. Leaves are falling all around, it's the best time of the year!!!
4. My favorite horror movie is Disturbia because Shia LaBeouf is in it, therfore it rocks.
5. Youth group retreats and crazy games with Dino = good memories.
6. It was a dark and stormy night when I got locked out of my house.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm(was) looking forward to babysitting Brendan and sleeping over Miriam's house, tomorrow my plans include KING RICHARD'S FAIRE!!!! :^] and Sunday, I want to sing sing sing, but I can't.....

Sorry it's a bit late guys....

thrill-seeking squirrels, letting God lead, and a new blog format.

(First, I'm gonna explain this new format.I wanted to have a little background on my day before I start to write a post so you guys know a little bit where I'm coming from. Mostly, it's just gonna be a few things like....well, you'll see. New Format starts now.)

Listening to: Three Days Grace's self-titled album
Mood: Sarcastic, and I want to get things straightened out.
Wearing: The pajama pants mom made me and my sweatshirt.
Hair: Twisted back in a butterfly clip.
Color of socks: white

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So, today I'm going to compare myself to a squirrel. Yeah, way to glorify yourself, Katy, right? But I've noticed something about those loud, annoying animals. While I was walking home from school today, I saw a squirrel run across the street. The thing about this squirrel was he didn't just run straight across like a normal animal. He ran into the middle of the left lane and stopped and just looked at the car driving towards him. Then he darted up to the yellow line, turned around, and ran back into the middle of the lane! Finally when the car was a few yards away, he darted the rest of the way across the street and up a tree.

Why do I compare myself to a squirrel? I'm loud, kinda nutty(lol, pun..sorry), love climbing trees, and love testing myself. Not so much testing myself a-la-chicken, and laying in the road as long as I can in front of a car before running away, but I love to see how far I can push myself and my comfort zone. I'll sing a song in church even though it scares me a little bit. I'll talk to "him" about what's really on my mind. I'll put myself out there for everyone to see who I really am. I'll look people in the eyes. I'll stand back up after falling down and laugh at myself. Things like that.

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I've learned over the past few weeks that I really can't control what goes on in my life. There's some stuff I've been dealing with that's just way over my head. But I'm not going there tonight. Right now I'm gonna talk about relationships. Over the last month or so I've learned a lot that I didn't know about what God uses relationships for.

My youth leader recently had amutual break up with her boyfriend of six or seven months. And she decided to talk about it a little bit with us during Bible study Sunday morning. She said that even though they broke up, she thought that she made the right choice in God's eyes because she was better after that relationship. And I never thought of it that way. I always thought that exes were thought of as mistakes in your past that would keep coming up at the wrong time, even after you were happily married. And sure, I guess that can happen sometimes if it was a bad decision, but nobody's perfect.

Anyway, I want to get back to what Steph was saying. She said that if you were even a little bit better for the relationship, then it was a good decision. The way I used to look at relationships was like they were never supposed to end. That if two people stop being friends, that it's the worst possible thing that could happen, and even that it's a sin. Now I look at relationships like I think they're supposed to be. Some will last forever, others will end, and others will change from friendship to something more, and vice versa. If you're awesome friends with someone through grade school and high school, but then you drift apart, then it was meant to be and it was part of God's Plan. If not, I've learned the hard way that God will hit you with the truth like a surround sound rock concert bass solo until your heart is pounding in time with it and it's all you can hear.

Back to the grade school friend: If you drift apart, and it's supposed to happen, then you've got these awesome stories from grade school and high school that you can tell your firends or kids without looking at that person as they are now. Maybe the best time for you and them to be friends was grade school and high school. That's when they had the biggest and best impact on your life.

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So there's my little insights on how I'm like a squirrel, and how God wants us to deal with relationships.

to start off: being a blog stalker.

found this meme on a blog that i'm watching: It's a woman's world! and i absolutely LOVE(!!!) meme's so i stole it, even though i didn't get nominated to do it. so bear with me.



As a recipient of this award, there are rules to follow: Answer the following questions with one word answers and one word only! Then pass it on to five others! The questions are as follows:

1. Where is your cell phone? Upstairs
2. Where is your significant other? um...
3. Your hair color? Brown
4. Your mother? Loud
5. Your father? Tired
6. Your favorite thing? Friends
7. Your dream last night? Driving
8. Your dream/goal? Diner
9. The room you’re in? Basement
10. Your hobby? Reading
11. Your fear? Solitude
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Maine
13. Where were you last night? CrossCulture
14. What you’re not? Tall
15. One of your wish-list items? MacBook
16. Where you grew up? Massachusetts
17. The last thing you did? Walk
18. What are you wearing? Turtleneck
19. Your TV? Massive
20. Your pet? Einstein
21. Your computer? Slow...
22. Your mood? Resigned
23. Missing someone? Yes.
24. Your car? None
25. Something you’re not wearing? Dagger
26. Favorite store? PacSun
27. Your summer? Awesome
28. Love someone? *shrug*
29. Your favorite color? Rainbow
30. When is the last time you laughed? Today
31. Last time you cried? Friday

The five bloggers that I’m nominating:

1. Aunty Joy
2. John S. Allen
3. Aunty's friend Elsa whose blog I love.
4. Aunty's other friend Julie cuz her food blog is amazing!
5. and Maximum Ride! =D

Now, for you recipients of this award, here’s the deal:

* Display your award.
* Link back to the person who gave you the award.
* Nominate at least 5 other blogs.
* Put links to those blogs on yours.
* Leave a message on the blogs of the people you’ve nominated.
* Enjoy your award!

Friday Fill-Ins (oops)

From Friday Fill-Ins. Accidentally did the wrong week, but I don't want to delete the last one, so here's set number two!! :^]


1. Apple picking, fall smells, walks in the woods, the leaves changing, sweatshirts, tall socks, King Richard's Faire, campfires, s'mores, smiles, and the senior high retreat!! are some of the things I'm most looking forward to in October.

2. Sometimes I pretend to think like someone else so I can try and figure out what they're thinking, just by the expression on their face.

3. There are people in life who try and fail, and that's that, and then there are people who try and fail and try and fail and try and fail until they succeed... and that's why there is a saying, "never say never"!

4. When I'm down, I talk to my friends about it, listen to music, write poems, and go for walks or bike rides.

5. Wherever you need me is where you'll find me most often.

6. A rainy day is good for s'mores over the stove, running in the rain with your head back and your mouth wide open til you're soaked all the way through, and bundling up in the warmest sweats you can find, with two pairs of socks and a blanket tucked around you, sitting on the porch with your sister and listening to the rain fall down.

Friday Fill-Ins

From Friday Fill-Ins. Got this lovely idea from my blogging obsessed Auntie.

1. Oh, I can't wait until I have a license and a car so I can escape for a bit every now and then.

2. Soymilk, Abby and Bekah's lunches, leftovers, and nectarines are the first thing I see when I open my refrigerator and that's only the top shelf....

3. I never leave home without my cellphone, iPod, and whatever cash I have.

4. If I were a condiment, I would be chocolate sauce because I love ice cream and chocolate.

5. Snobbery and being fake is really high up on my list of pet peeves.

6. The last thing I thought of before I went to bed was a few of my friends who are going through a massively hard time right now.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I’m looking forward to watching the new episode of True Blood on the DVR, eating ice cream, and taking my strep meds; tomorrow my plans include Mark's baptism, an english project on vikings, and lots of make-up work and sleep; and Sunday, I want to finally be able to hang out with my friends, be better, and sing at Cross Culture (hopefully Dave To will come this week)!