Listening to: Three Days Grace's self-titled album
Mood: Sarcastic, and I want to get things straightened out.
Wearing: The pajama pants mom made me and my sweatshirt.
Hair: Twisted back in a butterfly clip.
Color of socks: white
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So, today I'm going to compare myself to a squirrel. Yeah, way to glorify yourself, Katy, right? But I've noticed something about those loud, annoying animals. While I was walking home from school today, I saw a squirrel run across the street. The thing about this squirrel was he didn't just run straight across like a normal animal. He ran into the middle of the left lane and stopped and just looked at the car driving towards him. Then he darted up to the yellow line, turned around, and ran back into the middle of the lane! Finally when the car was a few yards away, he darted the rest of the way across the street and up a tree.Why do I compare myself to a squirrel? I'm loud, kinda nutty(lol, pun..sorry), love climbing trees, and love testing myself. Not so much testing myself a-la-chicken, and laying in the road as long as I can in front of a car before running away, but I love to see how far I can push myself and my comfort zone. I'll sing a song in church even though it scares me a little bit. I'll talk to "him" about what's really on my mind. I'll put myself out there for everyone to see who I really am. I'll look people in the eyes. I'll stand back up after falling down and laugh at myself. Things like that.
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I've learned over the past few weeks that I really can't control what goes on in my life. There's some stuff I've been dealing with that's just way over my head. But I'm not going there tonight. Right now I'm gonna talk about relationships. Over the last month or so I've learned a lot that I didn't know about what God uses relationships for.My youth leader recently had amutual break up with her boyfriend of six or seven months. And she decided to talk about it a little bit with us during Bible study Sunday morning. She said that even though they broke up, she thought that she made the right choice in God's eyes because she was better after that relationship. And I never thought of it that way. I always thought that exes were thought of as mistakes in your past that would keep coming up at the wrong time, even after you were happily married. And sure, I guess that can happen sometimes if it was a bad decision, but nobody's perfect.
Anyway, I want to get back to what Steph was saying. She said that if you were even a little bit better for the relationship, then it was a good decision. The way I used to look at relationships was like they were never supposed to end. That if two people stop being friends, that it's the worst possible thing that could happen, and even that it's a sin. Now I look at relationships like I think they're supposed to be. Some will last forever, others will end, and others will change from friendship to something more, and vice versa. If you're awesome friends with someone through grade school and high school, but then you drift apart, then it was meant to be and it was part of God's Plan. If not, I've learned the hard way that God will hit you with the truth like a surround sound rock concert bass solo until your heart is pounding in time with it and it's all you can hear.
Back to the grade school friend: If you drift apart, and it's supposed to happen, then you've got these awesome stories from grade school and high school that you can tell your firends or kids without looking at that person as they are now. Maybe the best time for you and them to be friends was grade school and high school. That's when they had the biggest and best impact on your life.
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So there's my little insights on how I'm like a squirrel, and how God wants us to deal with relationships.
